Time For Work?

A title I didn’t think I’d be writing anytime soon, but then again here we are. The time has come for going back to work in T-minus 3 days. My first day back is Saturday and to say I’m absolutely papping it would be an understatement. It’s got me thinking about a lot of things. How has the time gone so quickly? How am I going to cope without being with my daughter 24 hours a day 7 days a week? To be honest, I actually don’t know the answer to either of those questions.

As I sit writing this, I’ve been looking at Freya through the monitor at her sleeping and thinking how lucky I have been over the last 10 and a half months to have shared basically every waking moment with her – obviously with the odd day and night to ourselves. Who would have thought we would be at this moment when it is time to get my work gear out ready to nearly start another chapter of our lives.

Since Freya had arrived I have always dreaded going back to work, but since speaking to my Boss I actually feel a little more at ease. She has been very understanding about our situation and always told me if something were to happen they wouldn’t hesitate to let me away. I wish I could be a stay at home mum but for Keir and I this isn’t an option at the moment. We have discussed possibly me finishing work in the future but for now, this is what needs to happen for us.

Leaving Freya will probably be so hard but it is only going to be for basically two days a week in total. I won’t be putting her to bed every night with Keir like we usually do but I think I can live with that just now. My main worry is that I’m going to miss loads. I know in the back of my mind this probably isn’t true but it is still a worry. I feel like she is growing so quickly and it’s like I’ve blinked and we are here now, waiting for me to start work again. Again with the question, how does it actually go so fast?

On a brighter note, I feel like it will be good for all of us to get into a proper routine again. We know what I will be working from week to week. Luckily I’ll have most of the day to spend with Freya and Keir throughout the week and honestly I think we will make everything work – at least I hope so!

For all you mums that have gone back to work, how did you deal with it? Did you feel exactly the same as I do, or is it just me?

- E xo