Time For A Cot?

‘Time to bite the bullet and put Freya into her cot’ – worst idea that's ever come from my mouth!

Keir and I decided to put Freya into her cot as sooner or later she would need to make the transition anyway. Since Freya moved rooms and beds 5 days ago I feel really uncertain and insecure, not being able to lift my head up from my pillow to make sure she was okay. It just doesn't feel right her being in a completely different room to us, but suppose we bit the bullet.

The first night I thought this was going to be an absolute breeze but let me tell you how wrong I was! I don’t think I’ve ever had worse sleep in all my life. Getting up every few hours to make sure she is breathing and warm enough. Making sure her oxygen is still in her nose instead of her mouth (this happens quite a lot!). I was a Mummy on a mission making sure Freya was okay.

Since Freya has moved rooms and beds I genuinely don’t think she has actually noticed! A bed is a bed to her I suppose. She sleeps like an absolute dream in it, but still it doesn’t make it easier knowing my little girl is growing , a little too fast for my liking! It seems like we just got her home and into her moses basket and now she is in her cot – how is this even possible!? That was a whole 17 weeks ago now.

I think what is putting me more on edge is the fact that last night Keir and I went through to check Freya and she has been sick in her sleep. I think sheer panic came over us to make sure she was okay. Checking she was breathing was my main priority. My heart dropped as she didn’t make any sound while doing it. We have the monitor on loudest so we can hear her, but neither of us heard anything! It must have happened not long after we checked her, but god it is a scary situation. We woke her to make sure she was okay but she just looked at us like ‘ thanks for waking me up’. She was luckily all okay and just a little bit of sick, she has been washed fed and now currently back to sleep as I write this. Obviously her cot bedding has been changed too!

Question for all you mummies and daddies out there, does it get any easier? Does it change all of a sudden that you can sleep soundly while you child is in the other room?

I suppose the main thing is Freya is sleeping really well in her cot and hasn’t even noticed so for us that is a plus, but for us as her parents I feel like we are struggling to adjust to these changes. We will get there eventually but for now we will live with the uncertainty.

- E xo