Not All Sunshine & Roses

Becoming a mum has been the most rewarding thing I have ever done. Being able to watch Freya grow each day makes even the toughest days worth fighting. During my first couple of weeks being a parent, my eyes had been opened to who is really there for you. It's quite a hard thing to get your head around....but it's true.

Before becoming pregnant people would always tell you, you'll find out who your true friends are once you've had a baby...lets be serious here, no one really thinks about these things right? I mean...they are going to be there for me no matter what, yeah I was so wrong.

Since having Freya my friend group has gotten increasingly smaller and for good reasons too. People show their true colours once you become a parent...especially when you are a parent to a premmie. I mean what's a baby if you can't get a cuddle? Just having to sit and watch her in an incubator for an hour during visiting...what fun is that? To some people this is enough and for others...well lets just say all they want is sunshine and roses. Unfortunately, some of our reality isn't all sunshine and roses.

If people want to come and go in my life that's fine...but no one is coming and going in Freya's. We don't need part time people jumping in and out when it suits or people full of false promises, it isn't fair on Keir or I but most importantly, it isn't fair on Freya. During these 8 or so weeks since Freya was born, I've learned who my true friends are and let me tell you they have been pretty amazing. I know they are in for the long haul, and they've been through some of the toughest times with Keir and I. On the other hand sometimes you live in hope, thinking that certain 'friends' will come to their senses and be there for you. I've come to terms that this is never going to happen, and it's time to move on.

For the friends who have been there through the good and the bad. You've helped me and my family get through some of the toughest times of our lives, knowing you are all there makes them tough times a little less tough. I could go on and on about how amazing you all are, but I'd just start rambling...what I am trying to say is thank you for taking time out your day to text or call to see how we are doing, it makes all the difference.

To any mums out there going through this, it gets easier - trust me! Put you and your baby first, the rest will fall into place. Keep smiling, you're doing the best you can, you're not alone even though sometimes it feels that way and if someone hasn't told you, you are doing an amazing job!

- E xo